Friday, February 24, 2006


When I finished this I gave it the name "absence". There is a sense of absence. An absence of noise. Absence of excess. Absence of want.

presence, mixed media on panel, 4x4 inches

But it just didn't sit right with me. I thought actually it's the opposite.


n 1: the state of being present; current existence; [ant: absence] 2: the immediate proximity of someone or something; "she blushed in his presence"; "he sensed the presence of danger"; "he was well behaved in front of company" [syn: front] 3: an invisible spiritual being felt to be nearby 4: the impression that something is present; "he felt the presence of an evil force" 5: dignified manner or conduct [syn: bearing, comportment, mien] 6: the act of being present [ant: absence]

Naming things is always difficult for me. But I'm happy with this name. It fits. Especially number 3.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006


The phrase below is what I've been working through with all my tree images and paintings. It's always there. Sitting quietly. So I decided to make a 4 x4 inch mixed media oil dedicated to that phrase.

My translation is not very smooth. But the gist is there.

ayer es un árbol de larga memoria/ yesterday is a tree.....of long memory

I was reading through a journal of mine dedicated to quotes and writings that I've pulled from books, poems, whatnot since high school. Recently I came across an excerpt of an essay written by Pablo Neruda that I had copied into that book back in college. The phrase "ayer es un árbol" written hastily in pencil stared back at me. And in my head, when I just read it, I finished it with "de larga memoria".

yesterday, history, memory, roots...

In the earth part of the landscape is the definition of "memoria" ripped from a spanish dictionary

I might put this on ebay, but not sure right now. I'm feeling a bit attached to it at the moment.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Poured Out

I finished a 4x4 inch mixed media oil painting this weekend that had been waiting for me to finish it for several weeks now. I don't know what my problem was...I guess I was waiting. I felt like what I wanted to say with it wasn't in my grasp yet. So I let it sit.

And then by chance I ran across this Psalm, Psalm 22:14 to be exact.
I am poured out like water, And all my bones are out of joint: My heart is like wax; It is melted within me.

And so I picked up my brushes and worked on this little 4x4 inch piece.

Poured Out, mixed media oil, 4x4 inches
on ebay now

I think that even if one isn't religious, the words are just captivating. Well, it captivated me and I can only speak for myself. Or let my images speak for me...


While painting tonight I learned some valuable lessons:

1. I feel alive when I am painting-every cell and molecule of my being is awake and engaged
2. Music is a must. must. must. must when I'm painting.
3. A rag is sometimes more useful than a brush
4. It's ok to not always know where I'm will get there and I will know when it's done.
5. I really enjoy painting large oils. Patience, patience
6. Timidity is not allowed on canvas.
7. mistakes are ok. That's the only way I'll learn.
8. go with my gut

I just finished a 24 x 24 inch mixed media oil painting that I've been working on for weeks it seems. "Working on" translating to "work on it. hate it. let it sit. stare at it. sit some more. hate it. work on it. like it. stare at it. let it sit. hate it. stare at it." repeat. The whole staring at it and hating it was getting so bad that I was reluctant to pull out my oils and brushes. Procrastination at its best.

But I realized in this process that when I am not painting I am not happy. Disgruntled. Unsatisfied. Restless. Insecure. Solution=keep painting. Things will work out eventually. It's better to be painting than to just think about it and be unhappy.

I also worked on some 4x4 inch paintings too that hopefully I'll be listing soon.

I've started writing in my "real" journal every time I finish up. Making it a habit. Like part of my clean up after I'm done painting. I write about what I did, what I learned. Mistakes. Paint notes. Ideas that came to me while painting. It's proving to be very valuable.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

my creepy valentine

Not so creepy, but definitely not your usual valentines day card!

Monday, February 13, 2006

island living

I lived in solitude in the country and noticed how the monotony of quiet life stimulates the creative mind. ~Albert Einstein

Returned from a short trip out to the San Juan Islands just to getaway and to do some hiking. Didn't hike due to this chest cold that will not go away. But spent a lot of time dreaming about living on an island where the water glistens, the trees stand tall and noble, and the air is clean. I felt so calm and inpsired by the natural beauty around me.

I've always been a city girl, especially since I went off to Chicago for college when I was 18. I always thought I'd be a city person no matter what. But I've changed. I don't think I am that person anymore. But would I totally lose my mind living somewhere where you're more likely to see cows than people?? That is the question.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006


Just finished binding up this mixed media journal called Companions. The crow has always been a powerful, personal symbol for me- as well as trees. Crows are often scorned because they are associated with death, bad luck, misfortune. Also, in a more practical sense, they are scavengers and mischief makers and can be troublesome. Maybe for all these reasons, the crow as a symbol, speaks to me. They are on the fringe of society. Not totally accepted, but present nonetheless. I am always drawn to what is not typically desired.

Crows are observers and curious by nature. And being a creature of the air, they symbolize creativity and inspiration.

Shadow, light, magic, melancholy, curiousity...

Bound journal is available at amanobooks

Monday, February 06, 2006

Illustration Friday-chair

Ok, not a chair, but a bench is chair-like. I'm working on some larger oil paintings to go with my chair series. Well, I guess it's not quite a series yet when it's only one painting so far. But anyway, I did this sketch of the bench in gouache, colored pencil, and graphite. Hopefully I'll get to creating the painting soon. I feel like I have a lot of projects going on at the same time. Don't know where to start. Just want to go sit on a bench somewhere and stare at the water.

Thursday, February 02, 2006


Lunar, encaustic on wood, 5 1/2 x 9 inches

My first abstract encaustic piece.

I'm really digging this new medium.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Somerset Wedding, Volume 2

Right around the time when I was preparing all the little details for my wedding last year I heard about a call for unique art and ideas for the once a year wedding edition of Somerset Magazine. Somerset Magazine normally showcases the art of paper and mixed media. So I submitted some of things I made for our wedding, including our invitation and the Ring Nest I created for our ring bearer.

Below is the nest that I created to hold our wedding bands and that the magazine asked me to write an article about. It was difficult putting into words something made by instinct, but I did it and it's on page 64! The magazine should be hitting the stands either now or very soon. It's great for all sorts of creative, artistic ideas for your not-so-typical bride. Which is what I was. When I had been looking in the standard bridal magazines for ideas, I just couldn't even stomach looking at the cookie cutter cheeseball ideas they had to offer. Ugh.


Since I am the one with the camera usually, I never have any picture of myself! A few months ago, my cousin, Minda, came to visit me and she loves to take pictures. Here is one of me that she took. She even taught me a few camera tricks during her very short visit.
I wanted to show her the beautiful Puget Sound and we went for a walk along the boulevard as the sun was beginning to set over the Olympics.

dreamscape revisited

Just listed dreamscape on ebay!

dreamscape, mixed media and encaustic on 4x4 inch panel


The mounting I made for this 4x4 inch allows the piece to float when it is hung on the wall.